Ugh. I’m about to lose another role that I WAS SO SURE I would get. You never totally get used to that sinking, empty feeling. You get mad. Feel rejected. And question everything you did wrong and over-analyse everything and obsess about what you could have done differently.
But wait a minute…if I stop feeling entitled and sorry for myself for a minute, I didn’t LOSE the role…it wasn’t mine to begin with. I auditioned, it went well, they liked what I did, things looked good, then poof. It disappeared. For whatever reason. You know this by the time you get to my level: you can lose a role at any minute and for any reason. It has nothing to do with ability. It’s just the way it goes.
Besides, when you stop feeling sore about the way life treats you, you can get out of your way long enough to see the silver lining. I learned that when my friend Kelli died. She would have given anything for even a shitty day. She just wanted to live.
I try to remember that I am so fortunate. So are you. If you are reading this you have access to a computer/smart phone. It can’t be that bad, right? There is beauty in all parts of our life. We get so caught up in the crap we don’t get, that we don’t realize what we DO get.
How do you fix that? Live in the moment. Put yer phone down, take yer headphones off, and step away from the drama going on in your life for a moment or two. Look around at the miracles of life and what you have. The best way I can do this is walk in nature, but your place may be different. It humbles me.
Look around you and choose to see the good. Not the negative. It’s a choice. You may not have control over some of the things going on around you, but you have a choice on how you perceive them.